Sunday, May 04, 2008
In need of a state fair
“If you ever start feeling like you have the goofiest, craziest, most dysfunctional family in the world, all you have to do is go to a state fair. Because five minutes at the fair, you'll be going, you know, we're alright. We are dang near royalty.”
I've been doing a lot of brain purging in my non public diary but for some reason I don't experience that same feeling of release and relief as I do here when I hit "publish post."
So perhaps I'll take this down in a bit but I just need to get some thoughts out of my head and hit that button so I can move on.
-Sometimes I don't like the person I become around people very close to me. I try not to allow those sides to come out but it's hard when you feel yourself sucked back into a history of dysfunction. The thing that is so frustrating is that we all have the ability to control what we choose to show to the outside world so why can't I control these ugly sides? Why is it only certain people bring out these sides that can lay dormant for months or even years but yet can resurface in a split second once tapped? It makes me feel rotten inside and I guess I just need to suck it up and compromise who I am in order to maintain a level of peace.
That's all for now.
I also hate sounding like a Debbie Downer so let me end on something light. Here's one of my favorite Debbie Downer episodes on SNL. Gotta love live TV. See if you can watch the whole thing without cracking a smile.
Posted by Me at 9:21 PM