Tuesday, February 10, 2009

Exhausted


Not much to say on here lately. I feel like the cat's got my tongue (which is quite possible) when I click over here to post. Life is all about unpredictability and lack of control and lately it's just getting to be too much. I've also been purging so much on my "dark side" blog and I'm left feeling mentally exhausted and emotionally overwhelmed. We all need balance in our lives but sometimes it's hard to make that shift. I hope in time I'm able to return to a more comfortable head space.

I haven't kept up with any blogs so I hope you all are doing well and surviving these tough times. If only we had a time machine to take us back to simpler, happier days.

Until then...

11 comments:

McNattums said...

What is the link to your "dark side" blog. I haven't been following that one but would like to get a 360 view of your life :)

Smileygirl said...

I've had that blog for almost as long as I've had this one, though it's gone through a couple of changes. I shared it with just a handful of people early on, but then my writing became more inhibited and censored so I restarted it under an alias.

Since it is so personal and the topics are anything but happy, I don't want to bring others from this blog (or my real life) into that place. Kind of like 2 worlds crashing into each other and a personality shift has to happen in order to enter each one. Does that sound crazy? Probably. I'm really missing my therapist. Sometimes I think blogging is the next best thing.

karengberger said...

I'm sorry it's so dark right now. I hope each day will contain something to encourage your heart (as it's such a sweet heart!) and give you hope and strength to face what is in front of you. One moment at a time, right?
Maybe a little SNOW will help! It's a whiteout here, right now.
I noticed that Lizziebelle took her blog private, too...I'll miss her. HUGS to you & your guys!

Busy Bee Suz said...

Oh, how I hate it when smiley girl is not living happy.
Let me cheer you up.
Somethings that you have said/done have infiltrated my life. Such as,
everytime I hear a Chris Iassic song, I think of you.
When ever I see someone picking up dog pooh w/ a pooh bag, I think of you.
When I see an ad for the roomba, I think of you.
Ok. this makes me just seem scary now, doesn't it?
You are lucky I am on the other side of the country...I would come over and give you a big hug.
I hope you feel better soon....
Hugs,
suz

McNattums said...

I totally understand! Sometimes just letting it all come out without worrying about what your writing really helps.
I do have to tell you, every time it rains here in LA I think about getting a pair of those rain boots you have for walking wrigley. I hate hate hate wet pants.

Kim said...

Awww I hope you get to feeling "sunshiney" again soon, I miss your funnies.

Valerie said...

I agree with the other posts...we miss your funny personality! We must know the outcome of Chumley's conviction!!

Hope your days get brighter and life gets easier. Keep moving towards Spring.

Bon Don said...

I think it's been in the air, I haven't been around too many blogs lately. I felt like I was in a funk.

I've been toying with the idea of a side blog, but if I was completly honest I might scare people away!

Maggie said...

Happy days will be back Smileygirl...I know it doesnt seem like it now!! Sending sunny, happy thoughts your way!

HappyWifeHappyLife said...

My darling friend, I feel EXACTLY the same way. I finally put up a post today but for the past several days I've just gone to my block, clicked on "new post" and watched the blinking cursor (it was like a game of "Pong" (remember that??!) :)

Lately, my dark side has been getting to me too.... more for financial and work-related reasons.... I realize it won't be forever, but going through the valley is, indeed, no fun. So, I can relate to EXACTLY how you feel. And I'm so sorry you're dealing with it too.

Things will get better for both of us.... we have just have to remembr that this is just ONE "season" in a LONG life. :-)

Busy Bee Suz said...

I tagged you. You have to play. :)