Wednesday, June 10, 2009

3 years ago today...

my Pops died.

I can't believe he's been gone for 3 years. A lot has happened since then, and since we've been going non stop for the last several years, I've allowed other external factors to occupy the sadness of his loss in my mind. But I can recall the day he left this world like it was just an hour ago. Reliving it in my mind makes my chest tighten and my throat close and my head feel a little woozy.

I'm going to sit with my memories for a bit, the good ones, the sad ones and that last day my Dad and I shared together.

15 comments:

KBL 2 ORD 2 SAN 2 LUV said...

Sweet tiny friend,

I got your thoughtful package. I am sorry I haven't been able to write or post anything. But, I happened to stroll the Internet today and found this, and my heart hurts for you. I am so very sorry for your loss. What a handsome man. What a good soul. I can imagine him prank calling the other team's pitchers right now.:-)

If your dad is anything like you, he's making the most of his surroundings...whether it means making faces out of pills, or kickin' back with a stiff manhattan up there in heaven watching all the pretty lady angels walkin' by. God bless him.

Love you.

lizziebelle said...

xo. my heart hurts for you. he is playing goofy tricks in heaven i bet.

Anonymous said...

I hope your memories of your father bring you comfort. I am so sorry for your loss...

Jane said...

I'm so sorry for your loss. In these instances, I'm not sure how much time does heal. A father/daughter bond is forever unbreakable.

karengberger said...

That is one of the sweetest photos I've ever seen of a father and daughter. The looks on both of your faces speaks volumes...and you haven't changed much! He looks so delighted to be with you, holding his little girl on his lap.

No one and nothing can fill his place in your life. That place is his, and his alone, and it is a sacred gift.

It hurts me to think of you in pain from missing him, but I'm so glad that you are taking time to sit with his memory. I am sure that, as you do, you will feel his love surrounding you.

I wish I'd been able to meet him! I think we'd have been laughing within just a few minutes.
Sending you much love and many warm hugs, dear friend. XOXOXO

LeighAnn said...

I'm so sorry you had to lose your dad. He must have been young. I'm sure you were a wonderful daughter and he would be very proud of you.

endswith8741 said...

Oh, sweetie. These days are so hard. I hope you find comfort in your memories and love for him.

ChiTown Girl said...

Wow, it's so hard to believe that 3 years have gone by already. I know the pain is still as deep now as it was then, and for that I'm sorry. Sending you love and hugs, my sweet friend.

Anne Good said...

Thinking of you today... So sorry that you had to go through such a loss. Find comfort in the fact that he must be so proud of you.

Catherin said...

Thinking of you, Laura. I lost my dad suddenly 2 1/2 years ago.

Kim said...

It was 3 years ago for me as well in February that I lost my dad. It has been three of the hardest years of my life but it is getting better. Things do get better with time but the hurt and pain never go away. I wish you peace today while remembering your dad.
Kim

Grazia said...

hey there-
my heart just ached while seeing that lovely photo of you and your dad. be kind to yourself today.

Laurie Brandriet Keller said...

Love the photo too ... sorry he's not here on earth but certain he's always around. And he has a Wickipedia page so I was able to lean all about him. No wonder you are such a cutie! xoxo.

Smileygirl said...

Thank you all for the kind words. I think June 10th will always be a somber type day for me, just have to allow that to happen. It has gotten easier with time, doesn't mean I don't miss him as much but since my Dad passed we've lived in 3 different places (we had just moved into our house in CA and when he died) so I don't have a lot of physical memories from the last 3 years if that makes sense. But I think of him often and know that I'll see him again one day. :)

HappyWifeHappyLife said...

I'm sorry I'm delinquent in reading this and commenting. I didn't put two and two together the other day when I saw the tribute to your Dad on FB.

Wish I could give you a big hug, but please know I'm thinking of you, on the other side of the continent.
:)

T.