Thursday, March 03, 2011

Where is home?


When you grow up in a professional baseball family, your life as a child is never really normal.

And I think that's where a lot of my abnormalcies (is that a word?) in my adult life, stem from. (should never end a sentence with a preposition but without the word "from" it just sounded incomplete.)

There was no consistency, no routine, no such thing as "normal" throughout my childhood.

But, at the time I didn't realize this.

It wasn't until later.

MUCH later.

That I figured out our life was a bit outside the norm, so to speak.

Where. To. Even. Begin.

Constantly living in two places. A home, a home base really, nestled in the affluent north shore of Chicago, and another home, a second home? Not really, because we didn't always go as a family. South America, Florida, Canada, all these lovely places were part of the landscape. So is that why I feel so restless when I'm in one place for too long???

Who knows.

Just trying to fit the f*cked up puzzle pieces of my life together so it all makes sense.

Does that make sense?

No.



4 comments:

ChiTown Girl said...

Maybe you should spend a little time at your home base? Might make you feel better. ;-) It would definitely make ME feel better to see that beautiful face!

karen gerstenberger said...

Yes, it makes sense to me. (I think the word you are looking for might be "abnormalities," but as your friend who loves you just as you are, I prefer "charming quirkiness" or "original style.") Thinking about what a CHARACTER your father was - not just the life STYLE, but his unique gifts of humor, fun, spontaneity and his freedom from conventions - and your mom's sweetness and hilarity - both of them would have shaped you. In addition, when a child is constantly moved, and to random places, it makes sense that she would grow up with the feeling of needing to be ready to pack and go at all times. (Think of how your moves have affected your animals - and they are not human!)
It makes sense to me.

Anonymous said...

I totally relate. I grew up as an Air Force brat - I have wanderlust in my soul. I'm shocked I've lived here for 10 years - a major record.
Moving is fun, energizing, full of adventure.
Ah - now I'm thinking - where to next?
Sue

KBL 2 ORD 2 SAN 2 LUV said...

Wanderlust is the perfect way to describe it. I feed mine by traveling. A lot. I know how you feel, we moved a lot after escaping Afghanistan, and I think it leaves a bit of antsy-ness with you as you become an adult.