tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-37085797.post3943492538854923049..comments2024-03-27T16:01:06.396-07:00Comments on Live Happy: thought purgeUnknownnoreply@blogger.comBlogger18125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-37085797.post-16916091064201162752012-06-23T13:29:53.761-07:002012-06-23T13:29:53.761-07:00I am totally with you on a few of the things you w...I am totally with you on a few of the things you write about. Depression and Seattle seem to go hand in hand, I take 50,000 iu's of D3 every week. I forget when the sun does shine to take it and now I am feeling the weather suffocating me. <br /><br />My Dad passed, this spring was a year. So much that wasn't resolved makes it harder to deal with him being gone. Plus this weather. <br /><br />I would move if I could but I can't so for now I soak up the sun when I can, take my D3, blog about flowers - it helps keep me sane to see sunshine and flowers year round even if I took all the photos on the only sunny day! <br /><br />I hope the sun comes out and we both feel more better.Anonymoushttps://www.blogger.com/profile/00476326456453144893noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-37085797.post-9959996271587785802010-06-03T00:06:05.438-07:002010-06-03T00:06:05.438-07:00rebecca, thank you for that link. I'm interest...rebecca, thank you for that link. I'm interested in any help as I don't want to have another one of those so it can't hurt to do the 30 day trial. But dang if I didn't get anxiety just looking at how many CDs there are! That seems like a lot! Have you ever heard of Kundalini meditation? It's pretty powerful. I've done it a few times and did some today and felt clearer and more focused and able to cope afterwards. And as I'm posting a link to send to you I just read the paragraph at the bottom where it talks about the dangers and here is what it said: <br /><br />"Dangerous?<br /><br />The Kundalini can be dangerous in the respect that is can cause terrible headaches, increased body temperature, extreme anxiety along with other numerous symptoms within the body and mind. Sometimes the symptoms become severe if the energy isn't balanced. Prolonged symptoms could lead to mental neurosis and cronic physical pains. We automatically and naturally want to fight what is happening within us, especially since we don't fully understand the process. If we recognize the body as energy, we should be able to tune into any symptoms and help balance the Kundalini energy promptly. The same is for chakra work, which is the starting ground for body-energy awareness. Once the feelings are recognized, we can then deal accordingly with the energies. Recognizing it is half the battle."<br /><br />So I'm guessing my energy is definitely not balanced! I wonder if doing this work is causing more anxiety??? Soooo weird. <br /><br />Well here is the link so read it and see what you think but not sure you want to do it:<br /><br />http://www.starstuffs.com/chakras/kundalini.htmlMehttps://www.blogger.com/profile/17634228626032377554noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-37085797.post-73247577205971162472010-06-02T23:49:27.993-07:002010-06-02T23:49:27.993-07:00Oh, honey - hugs again. I know exactly how you fe...Oh, honey - hugs again. I know exactly how you feel. Seriously.<br /><br />So, number one - you are so not alone in this. You have had some issues and you recently had a panic attack (BTW, the end of the world stuff is also anxiety - totally understandable) - which I have had many times in the past - and dammit, if it isn't the scariest thing in the world. <br /><br />It's hard for me to put into written words, but I totally understand what you are feeling. The first thing that helped me was listening to these tapes/CDs (and if you have seen this before, just listen to the free tapes - seriously they will make you feel less alone right off the bat) - I SWEAR I don't work for them, but I was desperate enough ay the time to buy and listen and it really helped a lot - http://www.midwestcenter.com/. They do truly brilliant work.<br /><br />For what it's worth...rebeccacdmnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-37085797.post-71124830578447120132010-06-02T19:54:31.683-07:002010-06-02T19:54:31.683-07:00I haven't been taking vitamin B and I think th...I haven't been taking vitamin B and I think that's something important. Also there is SAM-E stuff that a friend recommended and I'll look into that too. It is quite possible that there is underlying emotions that I have buried or been too distracted before to deal with and now after just feeling soooo low those sadness feelings come to the surface. That's part of what I'm figuring out. It's like could someone be predisposed to depression but not know it until moving to a depressing surrounding? Could be. I think there are some other issues too because I feel completely closed in and claustrophobic when it's dark. It's different from just being sad it's a gripping feeling that the world is coming to an end. That's what is so bizarre. So I'm talking with someone now, have a couple referrals I'm testing out and we'll see how that goes. I went to therapy in CA and really benefitted from that so why the heck haven't I been doing that here? It should have come standard with our relocation package.Mehttps://www.blogger.com/profile/17634228626032377554noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-37085797.post-74890341900705423262010-06-02T17:42:24.763-07:002010-06-02T17:42:24.763-07:00This made me so sad for you. I totally know how y...This made me so sad for you. I totally know how you feel and although I don't know you, can I make a suggestion? It might not JUST be the weather. Or even mostly the weather. I've been reading your blog for a couple of years and during that brief time you have gone through so many changes - moving, health problems, animal problems, etc. etc. and now I would add your dad dying 5 years ago... well, let's just say you might have totally understandable reasons to be depressed beyond it raining 360 days a year. Not to say that getting some sun won't make you feel better, but maybe even nice weather is just something to distract you from your feelings. Maybe it's just harder to "shake off" the depression when its raining.<br /><br />I certainly know I have been very much effected by the weather, but since I started getting help for my depression (and the reasons behind it) the more I am able to cope when it's miserable outside. I do live in SoCal, but 5 years ago, if it would rain for more than 48 hours, I couldn't get out of bed. This year it rained for almost 10 days straight and I was completely fine.<br /><br />I don't know if that makes any sense to you. I just want to hug you (sorry if that is creepy from a stranger :-)). I think you really need to get help - you DO NOT have to live this way. There are solutions. The things that worked for me were drugs - the legal kind - and a very talented and patient therapist, which I would highly recommend you look for.<br /><br />Hugs to you!rebeccacdmnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-37085797.post-65181487054780943242010-06-02T09:51:16.244-07:002010-06-02T09:51:16.244-07:00Well since moving isn't an option, at least ma...Well since moving isn't an option, at least make sure you're taking a good quality Vitamin D and complete B supplement. Designs for Health are the one's I take because they are triple tested and very pure. I don't sell them or anything, I just really love them :)Anonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-37085797.post-9494416812651765232010-06-02T06:52:44.380-07:002010-06-02T06:52:44.380-07:00Hugs to you. I wish there was an obvious answer. I...Hugs to you. I wish there was an obvious answer. I hate to recommend medication, but maybe that's a part of a temporary fix until you can move somewhere sunnier? Mental health is so important and you deserve to find some peace. I know I'd feel the same way without sun for so long.Anne Goodhttp://www.agoutloud.comnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-37085797.post-47028159186315391792010-06-01T22:56:46.580-07:002010-06-01T22:56:46.580-07:00I'm so glad that you wrote all tha you did her...I'm so glad that you wrote all tha you did here - purging this way keeps it from exploding under pressure!<br /><br />Wish I knew what to say about the weather. I'm a native, so I expect it. It's why there are "snowbirds," I suppose - those who can afford it, go south for the winter. Heck, even the birds know to do it!<br /><br />I think Tom has a wonderful idea there - and if you can plan even a long weekend (or two, or a week, or two) away from the gray, you may find it helps you endure what you can't change.<br /><br />Indoor hobbies help a lot of people, I know: knitting, sewing, crafts, reading, writing, internet, volunteering, etc. Since you do all of those, I am not sure what's next: maybe developing a "Real Housewives of Seattle" show? Does Mark still read your blog? XOXOGbergerhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/08895779471612397202noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-37085797.post-9622807236150733052010-06-01T20:45:06.301-07:002010-06-01T20:45:06.301-07:00I've lived here for 10 years and wish I could ...I've lived here for 10 years and wish I could say that it's not typical of May but it is. We have cold temps thru June, compared to California and what we experienced last year was unusual. July - Sept is our reprieve from the rain but like someone else said - you have to come to embrace the weather here or else you will have a very hard time. It's not for everyone and I guess that's what keeps it from overcrowding. <br /><br />I just recently found your blog searching for key lime martini recipes and enjoy your writing.Jeannienoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-37085797.post-69907801747197338082010-06-01T19:03:52.318-07:002010-06-01T19:03:52.318-07:002 years was my limit. I moved there the year it ra...2 years was my limit. I moved there the year it rained 90/120 days and had never felt so miserable. Great place to visit in the summer but you have to love the rain and the chill to thrive in that climate. Hang in there.Anonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-37085797.post-88026185823013157392010-06-01T18:30:24.257-07:002010-06-01T18:30:24.257-07:00Thanks so much. Here is my e-mail: kscanlonpr@yaho...Thanks so much. Here is my e-mail: kscanlonpr@yahoo.com. I think we are neighbors if you ever want to meet for coffee or something. I think it would be great to try and help each other. And yes, I did feel better on Monday when the sun came out. I feel like I am actually awake!Kathleenhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/10808030638947473314noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-37085797.post-23991251966465425812010-06-01T18:23:19.727-07:002010-06-01T18:23:19.727-07:00Oh Kathleen, I wish there was some way I could hel...Oh Kathleen, I wish there was some way I could help you. I hate to hear that you are having regrets because that on top of dealing with the depression is sooo difficult. And when you feel this down you tend to really believe that it's going to stay this way forever and will never change. Yesterday when the sun finally came out did you feel a little better? I did and it was like OMG I am a normal human being again!!! And that lasted the whole day and night and I had pleasant dreams and felt like OK I can do this. Then another gray day comes and it's like I feel Shit slammed back to the ground. It's not a healthy way to live at all and I'm so sorry you are feeling this way but PLEASE know that it won't last forever. If there is anything I can do to help I would. We're in this together along with A LOT of other people so don't feel that you are alone. I'm just so sorry about your mom and I know she would not want you to feel this way so let's try to get through this and help each other.Mehttps://www.blogger.com/profile/17634228626032377554noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-37085797.post-62703523270742196642010-06-01T18:18:21.778-07:002010-06-01T18:18:21.778-07:00This is for the 2nd Stephanie, I didn't see yo...This is for the 2nd Stephanie, I didn't see your comment til after I posted mine. I completely agree that marriage is the most important no matter what, especially when we are 80 years old and all we have is eachother. Thing is, I do respect Tom's career and where he is right now and I think if I can come to a level of acceptance that this will be our home it might help. I have been living each day thinking/wishing that it will change and I think that is what makes someone crazy. Isn't that the definition of a crazy person, doing the same thing over and over and expecting a different result? It's something like that I think. But I have to keep imagining that we will be whisked away somewhere else (and I"m not just thinking s. cal, seriously any place outside of the northwest will do) ok there I go again, BUT, I'm so over the fact about going back to S. Cal, I have put that out of my mind. Ideally, I just want a place that is less dark, less wet but until then I have to accept this is where we need to be. So I'll probably be taking a LOT of trips while we're here!Mehttps://www.blogger.com/profile/17634228626032377554noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-37085797.post-73835931552547572242010-06-01T18:13:20.653-07:002010-06-01T18:13:20.653-07:00Laura, I can completely empathize with how you are...Laura, I can completely empathize with how you are feeling. I was very excited to move back to Seattle after not living here for 8 years and having spent 2 years traveling back and forth for family and a long distance relationship. In the back of my mind I worried about SAD but pushed those thoughts away. Now I am regretting that because now that my mom has passed away the weather is taking a serious toll on my mental health. I feel like I cannot move forward because I am stuck in this gray place and it will never get better. I'm sorry you are facing this struggle with the weather as well and even though it might make you sad to know someone else is, I want you to at least know someone understands and doesn't think you're irrational when you have a panic attack by looking outside.Kathleenhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/10808030638947473314noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-37085797.post-63242673120491194282010-06-01T18:11:31.734-07:002010-06-01T18:11:31.734-07:00Ok thank you both for taking the time to even rea...Ok thank you both for taking the time to even read all of that. For some reason I forget that there are other eyes on here, I know that sounds so silly but sometimes when I write I just get things out and then it's like OH HI! You read my thoughts! It's weird I do that on facebook too. I forget things I guess.<br /><br />So yeah moving is not really an option right now and I feel weak to just up and move but I don't think it's healthy to continue the path I'm on. We have sun lamps and I've even resorted to tanning which I swore I would never do again. And I'm not tanning to be tan I did it to feel warm and hope that the artificial rays would mimmick the benefits of the sun. Tom also suggested that I look into volunteering sometime in the fall/winter for a month somewhere warm like costa rica or down south to help with the gulf because I'm sickened by the suffering down there. And Stephanie it's so true how just those few days can really affect your patience level. In California when we'd have June gloom for a month (but it would clear away by 1 everyday!) I was such a beast. If I knew then what I know now! Wow. I would have never said a peep. Actually no I probably still would have because it really is something beyond one's control. Ok still writing a novel here so I'll stop but thank you for reading!Mehttps://www.blogger.com/profile/17634228626032377554noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-37085797.post-62046743250210611832010-06-01T18:05:18.196-07:002010-06-01T18:05:18.196-07:00Are you coming to acceptance about living there or...Are you coming to acceptance about living there or are the two of you going to devise a plan to move someplace sunnier? This is my thought, work is just that, work. You should never let a job affect your life or your family or your marriage in this way, because in the end, when you are both 80 years old, the job, the money, the houses, the cars, not even the kids really will matter more then your marriage will. When your 80 years old it will just be the two of you and your relationship will be the only thing that truly matters. <br /><br />So if your reason for staying in this city is just for a job, it is not worth risking your sanity/health or your marriage for, because that job will not be holding your hand at 80 years old. Life is about being happy and enjoying everything it has to offer and being the best person you can be to yourself, spouse, family and friends.Stephaniehttp://www.marriagetales.blogspot.comnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-37085797.post-66336147584119593532010-06-01T18:03:48.695-07:002010-06-01T18:03:48.695-07:00I've thought to myself that you needed to move...I've thought to myself that you needed to move out of Seattle, but then again, you just bought a house. And have a husband. And a dog. And a crazy cat. Don't think that moving is all that reasonable. But you are right in that you are lacking in sunshine and that it definitely has an effect on your mood and happiness level. People always make mention of the rainy dreary depressing weather that is Seattle. I feel for you. It goes 3 to 4 days here in Florida and I can tell a difference in my patience level and mood. I wish I could hand you some advice. You already have a sunlamp, right?<br />Steph~Stephanienoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-37085797.post-72596271074103822802010-06-01T17:58:09.809-07:002010-06-01T17:58:09.809-07:00Living in two different COUNTRIES for nearly 6 mon...Living in two different COUNTRIES for nearly 6 months a year has kept my parents married for 44 years. Just sayin'..... ;-)ChiTown Girlhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/09240876368610100419noreply@blogger.com